Posted by Honore on August 10, 2007, at 8:12:04
In reply to Re: Sorry to upset anyone **trigger** not eating » Honore, posted by OzLand on August 9, 2007, at 19:35:39
Maybe I'm wrong Ozland, but I suspect your T won't be angry. He may realize he's been shorting you, and want to know how it feels. I'd think he be more concerned about your feelings, as well as giving you the full time.
I'm really concerned about the eating because it's can be so addictive. Can you pull yourself away from the path of that-? before the attraction becomes stronger? Even if you eat just soup and other foods that are easier and give you a feeling of relative control and safety. You can handle it, I know-- even if it feels as if you don't want to, and only want to feel left alone and untormented.The job situation must be frightening and demoralizing, especially as you're on the brink of cutting your ties to your church, which is also a source of human connection and continuity. And you've gone through a terrible experience in losing your prior T. It takes a long time, even with a good,new T, to come out of the devastation that some bad T situations and their endings really do. Disruptions and losses can make not-eating feel good-- as if suddenly, you're free, you don't need anyone or anything and the emptiness is good. But it isn't. You do need food. And there will be new people who care about you and have the resources to be reliably there for you. I know you'll find them.
It's so hard to have apointments that are frequently cancelled; and a T who takes you in late. It's important that he take better, more consistent care and lets you down less-- You deserve either a different day, or a promise to reschedule when he leaves. I hope he comes through for you today. I'm optimistic.
But if it' s difficult to go today, I also do know how hard it can be to face what feels like another rejection. I don't think it will be one, really I don't. Let me know how you're doing later, if you can.
Honore
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