Posted by muffled on July 24, 2007, at 22:59:02
In reply to Re: LLurpy, how ya doin today? » muffled, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on July 24, 2007, at 14:56:42
> Hi muff, thank you for checking up on me ((((muffled)))
**(((LL)))
> 1) I took all my meds as prescribed. Even the klonopin. Which I am noncompliant
> 2) I drank a big cup of coffee.
> 3) I called the movers to file a claim for scratches and dents
> 4) I walked to the pond. past the stinking pondweed section. sat on the granite boulder. just for a minute. held hands with H
> 6) Went to our favorite lunch restaurant. I had grilled shrimp and salad. diet coke.
> 5) Went shopping at grocery store. decided I needed a treat. sent H ahead, and I bought 5 white carnations, a calla lily and 4 siberian iris at the florist. I came home and arranged them while H put away groceries.
>
> That's what I've been doing
>
> Here's what I've been feeling
>
> 1) blah. blah. do I really have to get up. guilty. have to get up. heavy heavy head and limbs. must. get out of bed
> 2) maybe today won't be so bad
> 3) uh oh. people's worried about me in babbleland. how do I manage to keep them concerned at arm's length distance?
> 4) optimism- today won't be so bad after all. is that "Energy" I feel?
> 5) slump. utter complete slump and haze returning.
> 6) maybe I can go out of town this weekend. maybe I'll feel well enough by then to make it to the anniversary of G&G. Gmom called and told me that whatever I decide is okay, and that even if I come at the last minute someone can pick me up at the airport. I only need to be awake for a little while. It's not like my graduation and the wedding when I had to pretend to be bubbly and happy. Here I can be pensive and not raise too many eyebrows. Keep to myself.
>
> change of scene might be good. lemme price the airplane tix.**Now thats a seriously cool post. The content was a good update thank you, but the WAY its written is SO cool. The first part is like the outside stuff, and how we SEEM ok, but the second part was the reality of it...the transition, eberything...well written. You musta just slugged back a coke!
Anyhow, you are getting some stuff done and thats great. Give yourself some credit.
You gonna come out of this eventually.
Be patient.
Take good care,
Muffled
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