Posted by antigua3 on July 6, 2007, at 20:00:56
In reply to Re: I'm Very Upset!! » antigua3, posted by Dinah on July 6, 2007, at 15:10:29
Thanks Dinah; you are right about so many things.
Well, I chickened out, sort of, and called my T to tell her I was worried about her since she hadn't calle me back as promised. She called and we discussed how SHE was, and how crazy things had been with a serious illness of a friend of hers, and she never really apologized. It's o.k., though, we've been through a lot together.
We spent the next half hour trying to figure out my Pdoc's behavior and she kept reminding me it's about him, and not me. See, it's all about me, of course, and I do tend to think that i've provoked behavior in certain people when in fact, I probably have nothing to do with it. So she made me feel much better.
My Pdoc called and wanted to know why I missed my appt. Told him I didn't, I cancelled it yesterday. He asked if I wanted to reschedule and I told him I have to think about it and call him next week. He just doesn't seem to get me, and Ihave to decide if my need to work these types of things through with a man is as important as I think it is. Otherwise, maybe I should cut bait and run. I don't know. He has a lot go good things going for him, but I don't want to be hurt anymore. But maybe that's me hiding and not facing the truth. I'd really like to work these issues out with a male Pdoc, but maybe it's not him.
Thanks for taking the time to reply,