Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on June 20, 2007, at 15:55:02
T told me that he's a "fairly moody person" but that he tries to surf through the moods, rather than resist them.
This sounds so totally theoretical to me. Cannot imagine ever having the wherewithal to actually do this myself.
On a related note, he told me that he likes neurotic people. :) good. then we should get along just fine.
sounds like an interesting guy.
******************************unrelated to my T's moodiness is MY moodiness. I've been in this stinky dump all day long, and I think it's related to spending 24/7 with my husband for 5 out of the last 7 days. I miss my freedom. I miss the freedom to just be in a f*cking sh*tty mood and not be bothered about it. This sucks. Now I have to pretend to be happy at HOME? I wish he would just go to work, instead of working from home, leave me to my own miserable devices. What do I have to do? Kick him out. He's not paying attention when I tell him I need my space. I don't think he understands that one door closed in between us does not constitute "space" especially when I can hear everything he says to himself and every single bit of whatever he chooses to do with his ample leisure time.
also trigger for sh*tty mood is the feeling that finding a job for the next few years is going to be tough. I'm about 6 mos too late to apply for post-docs starting in September, and too timid to send out e-mails to interesting professors asking to work with them. Fear that I don't have what it takes. Fear that post-doc won't make me happy anyways. Fear that nothing will make me happy.
So here I am, with little to do but mope and bitch. This place is too small for both of us. I hope our new place will be better. I don't want to put all of my eggs in one basket. As soon as one door opens another slams shut in my face. Pond views... Not sure if this is the key to all my ills. Becoming frustrated at husband as he once again asserts that "all will be well" once I move out here permanently. WTF?
okay. enough bitching. well not really, but what's the point?
-Ll
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