Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on June 13, 2007, at 16:24:56
In reply to also having a hard time processing, posted by Dory on June 13, 2007, at 11:13:18
> i am having a realistic and reasonable anger situation. i am at unfair advantage due to medication issues and verbal/written skill problems. i am putting in a call to pdoc regarding that. i am having trouble typing, which i am normally very good at.. mistyping is becoming unbearable. It seems the response time of my right hand is slower or something, so words egt typed with leters in the wrong place. i left that senetence alone as an example. That was a real event, not a faked example.
***I've been there, unfortunately. I can't remember events, even events that I've told my T. She has to remind me of names, and of dates. I just don't seem to be making a coherent autobiography these days. As far as coordination goes, there was a whole season in orchestra when my hands were so out of sync that I requested to be put at the back of the section. The worst thing is that these problems become a runaway train. A slight error is made, then we perceive the error, then we criticize ourselves, meanwhile we are making more errors. psychologically, think of our cognitive faculties like some kind of limited resource. The extra cognitive energy required to blame ourselves (and sometimes to correct our booboos) takes away from our ability to perform the task correctly. Especially in typing. I remember reading somewhere that the hands give sensory feedback about typing errors. The problem is that this automatic feedback occurs several letters AFTER the error. My little stupid suggestion to you is to get a slower rhythm going. tap tap tap tap, rather than taptaptaptap.
(don't worry, if you could do it well once upon a time, you will be able to do it again in the future.
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> Word recall is another issue.yeah
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> i am exceedingly angry and justifiably so. i have had anger issues from other stuff but this is not about that. This is about why i became DOry in the afiryt place. UGH!!! see? wtf is "afiryt?" i meant first.
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> i am galvanized by the anger i had earlier. But i am having processing problems. i do not understand complete moronic behaviour. Anger makes me anxious and eventually i will suffer panic attacks. i need to process. i need to calm in a way which will not lead to destruction.
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you're so hard on yourself. Please give yourself some credit for surviving so many weeks of immediate crises. You're doing so well, EVEN with all the complications that come from your circumstances. take a bit of time and sit down and talk to yourself about things that you are grateful for. I can think of a handful of things that I'd be grateful for, in your circumstances1) ability to feel emotions- this is how one LIVES. death is having no emotions
2) Your ability to love. (your dogs, remember?)
3) You have achieved what many many people will never be able to do- lose 40lbs. Truly amazing, and you're so much healthier for it
4) You have an engaging personality that has won you many close friends and compadres on babble. I bet, given a little time and space, you'll find that you're able to find some friends elsewhere in your life when you're ready to get out there.
5) Ll and Kk love you, and I'm sure that the rest of the double-letters will soon come out of the woodwork and profess their admiration, if not PASSiON for you.> dammit.. i need to NOT have to fix all these f*cking typos. SG, writing is NOT something i should consider career-wise right now. BAd spellers of the world UNTIE!!!
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oooh I wannt goin! (that's what happens when I lose my rhtyitngm)> somebody hug me before all gaskets blow... please?
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