Posted by Happyflower on May 25, 2007, at 17:31:17
In reply to Re: Does you T do stuff that messes with your head, posted by gazo on May 25, 2007, at 17:04:51
> i think it's hard because he *does* care... i don't think genuine caring about a client should be entirely grouped as counter-transference.. i think he was pissed and probably a little hurt..*because* he cares.
Yeah, he does care, and he did get a little pissed I think I do know him very well, but I wasn't trying to hurt him, but I knew my message would ruffle his feathers a little. I know he does care what I think.
I guess I needed him and I wasn't getting what I needed from him, so I acted out, but I truely was trying to reach out to the one person who I know whould help me, and he wasn't available, so it pissed me off. It pissed me off he couldn't see me and it pissed me off that I felt so dependent on him.Same reason why he looked away... maybe he felt a little too comfortable about how much you could or should trust him.. maybe he thought it would bridge the depression and it didn't. Not your fault. Depression changes how we think and feel.
I don't understand what you are saying here. Can you explain it to me because I think I get it but not sure.
> having said that... and from the relationship you describe that you have with him.. i think you might have smirked a bit inside that his knickers were all in a knot. Am i right?
Well I knew it would get to him, but when I saw how hurt he seems to be that I didn't believe him, it kinda made me sad I said what I did. I don't enjoy hurting anyone, even if it seems like I do it intentionally, but then again, my thinking is working at the best right now. But no, I didn't snicker, I felt bad and I still feel kinda guilty about it. Thanks Gazo, I appreciate it as always. I hope to see you in chat tonight to hear about your job. ;-)
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