Posted by annierose on May 2, 2007, at 21:25:14
In reply to Re: How do you know?, posted by wishingstar on May 2, 2007, at 19:32:03
i do not know you but from what you post.
i do not think ending therapy at a time when you are suffering such inner turmoil is in your best interest.
you are trying so hard to find somebody to help you - and it seems like you can't find that magic button. but there is no magic button. i know you want the painful feelings to go away. it is a LONG SLOW ROAD to recovery. there are no quick fixes. it's sad but true. it takes time.
i have been following your journeys to and from the hospital. i hear how much you want someone to take care of you, comfort you and make the pain stop. i think all of us want some of that too - some more than others.
the sad truth is, you have to take care of yourself now. yes, ginny wants to help you. but she can only do so much. she can listen, and help you understand your feelings so you can make changes. just like your friends can only do so much now. that's what happens when you grow up, there is no mom or dad that takes care of us. and if you had a mom like mine, one that didn't take care of me as a child, it makes that need so strong.
i hope you do continue to work through your personal journey with ginny. you can go from therapist to therapist and keep bumping into the same wall over and over again. eventually you realize that you have the strength and determination to start a new course with your life, and use your therapist as a helpful guide and helping hand. i told my therapist i envision her holding my hand, guiding me, sometimes on a daily basis. she smiled and said, "that's the way it should be, i am there." she has found a place in my heart so she can be with me always.
i hope that for you as well.
i can feel such sadness in your writings.annie
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