Posted by gazo on April 5, 2007, at 14:57:24
again. i did it again. i went by his office building. i went in and hung out in the lobby and re-read the letter for the 100th time. i went up in the elevator and down the hall. i even bent down to see through the blinds if his office door was open or not. It was closed so i snuck into the wating room. Sadly, a door bell chimes when someone comes in and his door was open a bit. Good thing he was on the phone. The receptionist must have gone for the day though cuz her office was closed. So i bolted.... again.
i am not believing this. What is the big friggin' deal? It's just a letter for pete's sake! i actually LIKE the guy, he's not scary at all. He's quite friendly and charming. But i couldn't do it. i became terrified he'd get off the phone and come out... then i would've had to give it to him myself and stand there stammering.
i think i know what it is.. i think i am afraid that by doing this i am overstepping boundaries. i am afraid he will say that if i want him to look at something i have to wait until my appointment time... and then i would feel extremely bad.
i feel like he will think i am just bothering him. i am afraid i'll make him mad at me.
i am a big chicken :o(