Posted by gazo on March 28, 2007, at 9:11:27
In reply to Re: thanks all... going to take meds and sleep 4 now, posted by Happyflower on March 28, 2007, at 6:04:27
thanks HF.. i am heartbroken.. even the good things from the appointment break my heart.
i did not call my pdoc. i don't see a point in it. i don't feel suidicidal now. Otherwise there is not much he can do. i will do what i know he would tell me to do... take some of the anxiety meds, etc. i have to travel to see him and that is not possible this week.
i can't go see my new T sooner either. we tried to book me next week, and i am on the list if there is a cancelation. So i won't see him until the 9th. i know in the US t's are often available after hours by phone, etc... that doesn't work that way here. i don't even know if he does allow clients to call for support... :/
besides... i am so very hurt i just wouldn't be able to say anything. it would be a dead silence on the phone.
instead i am going to spend my day alternating from trying to keep my job, to wishing i was dead, to sobbing and hating myself.