Posted by gazo on March 27, 2007, at 8:36:47
In reply to Re: Update... smiling gazo :o) » gazo, posted by Happyflower on March 26, 2007, at 22:47:51
mornin' flower happy flower :o)
> We have more in common than you know! ;-)
Apparently!! There is SO much in what you said that i relate to. i have been finding your optimism very encouraging. i would love to hear more about your proces, but only if you feel like sharing.. you don't have to give events or anything.. just what clicked for you.>When I came to therapy for the first time ever 2 years ago, I could say such and such happened, blah, blah, blah, but if he asked me feelings about it, I was indifferent, almost non-feeling about the events.
THAT is it exactly. i am so disconnected. sometimes i think i have no feelings at all. i live life as a fake.
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> I also had a big list of stuff for my T to help me with, and I always questioned if I was too much for him, or is he getting sick of me, etc. Well he always replied that working with someone that has had some much tragic stuff in their life happen to them, gives him even more joy when he can help SO MUCH.again, bingo! i wonder if my T will feel that way. i am basically waiting for the part when we hit where i am completely stuck and he gets bored or frustrated. everyone around me has gotten frustrated already. i don't tell my friends what is happening because they love me but they are just tired of it
> A special thing I have noticed in you is that you have the drive and the williness to put yourself there and to do whatever is nessary it seems. It seems like the fact you are ready is maybe more important than who you are working with. I am excited to watch you, you have spunk! :-)
Awwwwww. :o):o):o) thanks. right now i am excited because this appt went so well.. he actually seemed engaged and interested.. i am afraid he won't stay that way, but it felt good at the time. The brave face is partially just that, a face without the courage behind it. That part depends on his skill. I am trying to give him the best shot at helping me.. i have worked hard on my own to get to where i am, i need him to guide me.. but he has to get through to the me inside, the one that hurts so much... the one i have disconnected from.
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