Posted by bird in the sky on December 29, 2006, at 21:19:22
In reply to Re: anyone still in love with their T..? Or not..? » Scentedgarden, posted by Tamar on December 26, 2006, at 20:00:32
Hi everyone,
I also haven't been on the board for a while. I am always attracted to the "in love with therapist" theme, because that i am. I, like Tamar, have noticed my love may have changed a bit. It is not quite as sexual and intense when i am not with him, as it used to be, though when I am with him it is sexual and it's hard not to just think about it or hard to keep myself from acting out. If any thing, i can't get the picture out of my mind of me positioned with my head against his chest. I so much want to hear his heart beat. I feel so deeply for him, but it doesn't feel so painful like it has with other (unrequited) loves of the past. It actually feels pretty good, though creates a little too much longing than may be real healthy. I don't know. i just can't see stopping therapy with him, that's the only thing...Tamar says"
I suspect that part of the remedy is learning to believe you’re loveable and beautiful. And I’m sure you are loveable and beautiful, but maybe you don’t believe it yet."
I do think i am loveable and somewhat beautiful, (mostly from the inside shining out) but not quite sure what i have to offer someone.I also have a strong desire, wish, to do something for him. Yeah, sex would be my first choice, but anything that he would enjoy, be comforted by, anything. But it doesn't seem the boundaries allow this? any ideas?
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