Posted by llrrrpp on September 14, 2006, at 16:33:23
There are some things that I would like to talk about with you. I’m having a really hard time bringing them up in my sessions. They’ve been stewing for weeks and months, but recently I have made a committment to saying them out loud.
I think it’s really important for me to say them out loud, but I’m just so tentative and scared. You see, it has to do with my feelings. Feelings are scary for me to express out loud. Especially the feelings that reveal some vulnerability or a tender heart. Having feelings like these makes me feel dumb and cliche, and expressing them makes me feel like I’m revealing my idiocy to the world.
Will you help me say them? It’s important to me. I even went so far as to write them down last time, but my note never made it out of my pocket. I didn’t feel the chance.
It takes a lot of strength for me to not write it in an e-mail and send it to you. That would be a cop-out though, and I think that this would be a really important chance for me to grow. It’s really scary too though. Just anticipating saying these things aloud is frightening. I don't like having to talk about these things out loud.
Feeling scared and little
-Lurpsie
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thread:685986
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