Posted by Dinah on September 7, 2006, at 18:42:53
In reply to Re: Falling off the pedestal » Dinah, posted by Jost on September 7, 2006, at 16:28:32
> > Gack. That was overly negative.
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> > See, my therapist didn't start out on that high a pedestal, and he fell quite a bit, so I'm sure it's different altogether.
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> Wow. I'm glad you aren't being negative, Dinah!
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> Cause if I were your T, I'd think I'd landed under water, or in a pit, in front of my stepladder? :) (I'm teasing, okay? don't be mad or too mad at me)Yes, that's what he often says. Why should I be mad at you for saying the same? Of course, he'd also acknowledge that he did fall in a pit or under water. And feel sad that we were both caught in the same vortex at the same time leaving him at far less than his best when I needed him most.
> Seriously, though-- I thought about this today, when my T was slightly getting on my nerves--
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> when I've needed him to save me from myself, it's been scary-- because no one can do that-- and I think therefore I made him extremely important, and attributed powers to him-- although not ones that I really thought I could find or get him to use--
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> It's not at all strange to want to believe that someone has the power to heal you-- and to have a hard time accepting that if they do-- it's only slowly, and with a lot of your own self-healing-- sometimes it's so hard to live with the fact that they can't just reach out and change you--Do I have that belief? Hmmm... I'd always thought that if he reached out to try to change me, he'd end up with a bandage on that hand. I always thought it was his unique ability to accept me that was his great strength.
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> or that there are these aporia (wow, I actually used this word, I never thought that littleoldme would just come up with a sentence that had it--okay, I have something to feel good about)-- (you had to be in grad school in certain subjects to know why I think that)Well, by gum, I guess there *are* things that degrees give you that allow you to think no one is better than you are. Graduate school must be special. I wasn't in grad school on any subjects, so I'll have to remain in ignorance. Fortunately that doesn't make me feel at any disadvantage. :)
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> and no one can wish them away, or avoid them-- even though they sometimes really swallow everything around them-- or seem to
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> Jost
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