Posted by sleepygirl on September 6, 2006, at 21:27:54
In reply to faking it, posted by wishingstar on September 6, 2006, at 21:00:29
oh my goodness...how I relate to this post
some days I can't imagine that it's not completely obvious that I am a shivering, quivering wreck
I have this way of speaking....feels kind of like a script- it's hilarious really because much of the time I'm thinking "wow, I'm totally talking sh*t"- but I think you put it aside for a while - they say "fake it 'til you make it" right?
there is something to that I think, for me anyway, challenging the feeling (that ridiculously deep down overwhelming feeling-just to not minimize there ;-) that "I can't"honestly.. a big part has simply been the meds, which by the way don't make a dent in my horrible lack of self esteem- but it quiets the running commentary I seem to have about myself
there's something to be said for altruism- it can be good to be outwardly focused sometimes when you're feeling depressed. I've got my own experience with being in horrible sickly kind of pain around people (yuck)- like oh, I've just got this bleeding, gun shot wound- nevermind that! how are you? (not real gun shot there, but you get the metaphor)
I've used sick days for it, but barring that I focused on absolutely anything other than how I felt.I get that just wanting to hurt yourself thing- best for me to distract myself from that- nothing that brings a major mood overhaul, but enough for the moment..then to the next moment, and the next, etc
other than that: therapy, meds, art, journaling
I hope it eases for you soon
be well,
sg
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thread:683784
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