Posted by ElaineM on August 12, 2006, at 11:42:56
In reply to Collapsing inward -- bad things from long ago, posted by Racer on August 12, 2006, at 0:52:00
Oh God, Racer!! I couldn't get through your whole post. I can't stop crying -- I've never cried reading a post before. [But I want to stress that I *chose* to read as far as I did, knowing that it would be hard] While they are terribly sad tears, they let me know that I'm not unique in my pain -- tears with isolation hurt more than tears brought out by identifying.
I can't say anything other than I can relate too well. I know you're not a hugger so I won't offer that, but I need you to know how very much I feel for you. I doubt that what we have is the same but your words could mine.
God, I really can't get over how effected I am by what I read of your story -- I want to try and read the last bit when I'm able (so sorry if I've gone off on an irrelevant tangent) I think it's especially difficult to hear your pain because I know you have the ED diagnosis too -- there is nothing like Anorexia to take away a person's credibility in the eyes of medical professionals. Most of all, when you've actually "recovered". I don't want to say too much because I don't want to upset you further, but I could write volumes about what having a psychiatric history has done to doctors believing my "perceptions", and "what feels real to me".... My veracity is in question now more than ever -- when I desperately need to have doctors "working for me" the most. I think you know what that's like.
I had only recently come to understand how well you could understand some of the stuff I've been through. But this last post has brought so much tears, and empathy, and desire to support you. I haven't had it in me to respond to too many posts lately -- I'm just too unwell -- but I'm so completely moved by your situation.
I wish I could say more right now -- I feel for you sooooo much.
care & strength, Elaine
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