Posted by Daisym on July 12, 2006, at 1:06:14
In reply to Re: am I expecting too much?, posted by ElaineM on July 11, 2006, at 21:02:01
You aren't going to like what I'm going to say...
You need to talk to her about this. I don't think your expectations are unreasonable but that would be based on my experience with my therapist. We've talked (and talked and talked) about phone calls because I don't want to bother him. But I do better when I touch base sooner than later. I know when he usually last checks his answering machine for the night and I have the cell number for emergencies. So between 10pm and 8am I'm not going to get a call back unless I call the cell. But I only know this because I asked and we talked about it.
I also think you need to specifically bring up not feeling heard about being suicidal. This is a serious thing. Perhaps you aren't being as clear as you think you are. Or perhaps she trust you not to hurt yourself, based on prior experience with you. But still...I'm thinking you might need together to develop a phrase that lets her know you truly are in trouble.
When do you see her again? I hope you are safe tonight and she calls back again soon.
OH, and you know what? If I hadn't heard from my therapist by noon of the next day, I'd call again and assume he hadn't received the message. The two times this has happened to me, he didn't get the message.
Hang in there,