Posted by Mme All Talk on July 11, 2006, at 17:16:04
I am struggling so much right now, as my T is on vacation. Its more than that though, I dont know what to do with myself. I cry myself to sleep at night, i am so distraught and alone. I read books to keep busy during the times that i would be seeing her, and also when i wouldnt be with her just to keep my mind occupied. I dont want to talk to people, i have no interest. I make plans for the weekends just to say i have plans but then i rush through them and get into bed and start crying or reading some more. I am so lost, so crazed, so sick from having this break in my treatment, and i have until the end of the month so i have a long time still. I dont know what i will do, i dont see how i will survive this, even if i have so many times before, this is just a living hell and i feel completely alone in it.
poster:Mme All Talk