Posted by annierose on June 27, 2006, at 19:14:57
In reply to Re: Holding my breath ... » annierose, posted by fallsfall on June 27, 2006, at 7:24:27
I guess the difference for me is that my mother never had time for me, or made the time. My T tries to point out that is wasn't "my fault" but she is just an emotionally unavailable woman. And I assumed that she made time for my siblings, but she probably didn't, it just seemed like she was there for them. From your description, it sounds like you had a loving and caring mother.
Anyways, I'm breathing now. We had our last session for 2 weeks and it did go okay. It was a little rough in the beginning. I was so angry. She said, "I think your description 'Holding my Breath' is just the title ... knowing you, you have pages and pages of feelings and ideas that you want to share but you have anxiety telling me all that you are thinking." I smiled because it's hard to say more. I even said, "How can an adult have such child-like feelings?". She patiently explained why I felt this way and that it was okay and natural .... AND ... who cares if no one else understands it, do you really need their reassurance? "Your friends on the internet, they understand, don't they?"
Yes, and I'm so happy for that. Thank you.
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