Posted by Karolina on June 11, 2006, at 0:51:05
OK.........I promise this will be the last time I post for awhile. But I really feel like I am going insane right now. And I just don’t have anybody else to talk to about this kind of stuff. It’s gotten to the point that now it feels like if my T and I don’t end up doing ‘something’ sometime soon, that I am going to feel so miserable and depressed that I won’t know what to do. and I know that sounds really crazy, that’s why I’m worried about all this I think.
It’s just NOT FAIR. Why do I have to feel this way about him, why am I letting it get in the way of all the good work we have been doing together?!? Or maybe my feelings for my T are more intense right now because I’m feeling lonely without my stupid boyfriend (we’ve broken up recently…)
but I’m sick of this guessing-game crap during appointments, like does it really mean anything when my T: glances down at my breasts or legs, stares at me so intensely, gives compliments, etc?? I almost want to ask him point-blank: have you ever thought about me sexually?? Maybe if he says no then it will end all this ridiculous fantasizing for me…
or are Ts not able to answer a question like that ??
I don’t know what to do. I’d love to tell my T ‘hey sexy I’d really like to get on you right now’ or I mean like I wouldn’t say THAT exactly, but I mean like tell him how I feel about him BUT I am too scared he’ll get freaked out and be like we can’t work through this, and send me somewhere else.
I HATE right now…sorry I don’t mean to freak out about this. I just feel like I’ve lost my freaking mind...
-Karolina-
poster:Karolina
thread:655426
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