Posted by bent on February 1, 2006, at 8:23:59
In reply to Re: starting my therapy break » bent, posted by annierose on January 31, 2006, at 17:48:35
I agree that the dream wasnt just a random one. It says a lot about how i feel I guess. I love what your therapist said to you. That is what I want. Did it make a difference to you to hear it from her? Even though I am sure my T cares about me, some part of me is just dying to hear it from her. Maybe its a younger feeling, i dont know. There have been a few other times when I have talked to my T about a break but we never followed through with it. It was obvious I was running. I know she would never flat out say no to a break but she always wants to explore why i feel i need it. And we did yesterday but quite superficially. She knows I struggle with my feelings about her but I havent really explained the pain I feel when I start thinking about being 'just another client' or how much I hate how much i think about her. It feels so embarassing. I'd feel like a freak telling her I wonder about her life and it hurts me. I wonder if it will ever subside. It been hanging on for years and it feels like it wont ever go away...unless of course I try to force some space between us. Thanks for the support. I am not sure what I want to do yet. I know I will have to address all this with her eventually. I'm feeling a lot more sad about this then I thought I would.
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