Posted by James K on January 26, 2006, at 13:39:44
In reply to (((JamesK))) (nm), posted by muffled on January 23, 2006, at 13:58:27
I want to post an update on my situation because some of you may see me back posting, and wonder "What the heck was that all about then?"
I went back to the psych hospital with my wife yesterday morning. Still trying to do the right thing. I found out I had been discharged from the out patient program already and that hurt my feelings so I said some pissy things. Nobody seemed to know who I was or why I was there. I've been involved with them since June.
I went through all the process and signed all the papers. They told me I had the same doctor even though I've told them 4 times don't put me in the same room with that lady. Then the other doctor came in and cleared some things up for about 2 minutes.
One of my good friends from outpatient came through very distraught. I was sorry she was breaking down, but happy to be in with someone I knew. She was upstairs in 20 minutes. I was getting antsy at about 2 hours. I mean when you make this important decision, you gotta go. strike while the iron is hot. One of my counselours stoppped by and was supportive, that helped.
At three hours, all the intake "workers" got their lunches and closed their office doors and I snuck out. As we drove away I felt a tremendous sense of relief. I've done everything I'm capable of to put myself somewhere I didn't want to be, but I have a limit.
I hid out at a friends house while my wife went back and made sure there werent county sheriffs with guns and tasers waiting to shoot me down in the street like a rabid dog. (read a houston newspaper sometime). No warrants, they still want me though, we are filing complaints with medical hospital and patient advocate at psych hospital. They're missing out on as much as 10,000 dollars of my and my insurances money because their front-line employees screwed up two days in one week.
I'm not going in. My wife hasn't accepted that yet, and who could blame her. She's been through a lot. I feel fine and I'm going to do this myself. again. i think. I'm going to heal. And I'm going to spend the money on Lasik surgery. work out. get a job. drink none to little, not hurt myself. read Jon Allen's book on coping with trauma. Clean and listen to records, alphabetize and read my books, put my rock mags in a filing system, re-read all my childhood comics, and find a part time job that can lead to full time. That sounds kind of manic. Gardening season is right around the corner. therapy? how?
I'm safe.
James k
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