Posted by happyflower on January 3, 2006, at 11:47:02
In reply to Re: what to do with the pain » happyflower, posted by bent on January 3, 2006, at 11:30:02
Hey, Bent, glad you are posting, we have a lot in common. I had to grieve what I didn't have from my parents. I always used to say how can I grieve something I didn't even know I was missing. Well now I see how it messed up my life. I grieved really hard not having anyone who really cared about me growing up. It is a dark place to go. It sounds like you are there.
You have been when with your T a long time, I am sure part of needing her is that you really need to talk about this grieving. I think the holidays bring up a lot of this stuff at least for me. Seeing all the joy in my kids eyes make me realize that I didn't have it like they do. I don't have any fond memories of my mom, no really fond memories of Christmas. I must have been a sad little girl.
Writing helps me too, I need to start to do more of that. My T will read what I write and it tells everything right out, without him having to anything. Please call your T, grieving what you are is very hard and painful. Can you get another appointment? It is okay to need your therapist. I need mine more than I can have. It hurts. I hate it too. It makes me want to run away. But I have learned it isn't what is best. Call your T! :) Let me know how it goes! :)
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