Posted by Susan47 on January 2, 2006, at 15:37:27
In reply to So funny, my ex-T, posted by Susan47 on January 1, 2006, at 15:59:43
And I just want to say to him, you know if I had the chance, if I could, I would look him directly in the eyes and I would say, F*ck you for silencing me. Just f*ck you.
And I would want to. F*ck him. I would. I would want to make love to him too, and kiss every inch of his skin, which is beautiful, as physically beautiful as any part of him I've ever seen, which is disgusting, it's horrible to have to admit that, but his skin the skin he inhabits is gorgeous, and so are his bones and his muscles and his soul, somewhere there must be a beautiful soul to be able to have so much love infused into it ...
I hate him.
Correction.
I hated him. And I loved him. And he hurt me, and maybe I hurt him or maybe, maybe he had the sense to close off, but maybe it was already a bit late, maybe there was something he needed too ... I hate this. Why are some non-relationships so f*cking complicated? Why do they bring this stuff out, why need to vomit and excorcise exorcise, exor .. ex-rated, that's what this is. X-rated, like him and me, in my imagination, I did so many x-rated lovely things with him, I loved him so much, I wanted every part of him, and I wanted someone to feel that way about me too, which is really really .. sad.
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