Posted by PreemieNurse on December 20, 2005, at 11:12:01
In reply to Re: Hello..new here and long post (triggers ) » PreemieNurse, posted by Poet on December 19, 2005, at 22:24:55
> Hi PreemieNurse,
> I'm sorry that you can identify with having to be around family members and having to pretend bad stuff never happened, but I'm glad you decided to post about yourself.
I'm sorry that anyone can identify with it at all. It sucks.
> I can't believe your old T called 911 on you and then acted like nothing important happened to you when you got out of the hospital. That is an awful hurt to have had to go through, but you did it and that shows your resiliance.
What it did for the relationship is to make certain that the next time I was that far down, I would not call him at all. I understand why he had to call them. I even understand why he didn't see me in the hospital. It was a different facility than he was associated with at the time. He was still a resident and couldn't treat me at the other place. But, yeah, why the 10 day wait?
> I don't have the same feelings for my T as you do for your new one, so I can't offer much advice on that. What I see as great in your relationship is how you feel able to be so open and honest. I have trouble talking in therapy and after three years can't say I'm very open especially on things that I know I need to be open on.
Oh, I still have a lot of trouble talking at times. But it's slowly getting easier. He is the first person that has ever let me have whatever feelings came up and didn't make me feel like they were wrong.
> Keep up the resiliance and strength and keep posting.
I will. Thanks.