Posted by happyflower on November 29, 2005, at 15:29:52
In reply to Re: Depression questions » happyflower, posted by Pfinstegg on November 29, 2005, at 12:25:29
No, you didn't hit any sore spot about therapy. In fact you are the 2nd person I think that suggested that maybe I needed to go more than once a month. I think it was Tamar. You are right, I probably need to go more often, all I have to do is tell my T that, and he will. I couldn't afford once a week let alone 2 times a week. He sees most of his clients every 2 weeks. He is giving me a small price break, since insurance stopped paying months ago.
I will have to look into one of those light boxes, I think I noticed I get like this every winter since I was in high school. Maybe taking a walk outside might help. I am an outdoor girl, and I hate being stuck inside the house during winter. I think I would love cross country skiing. I love nature and gardening.
I think my marriage might be what is bringing me down so much. It is so hard, with the holiday traditions that we normally enjoy doing with each other, are now like walking on egg shells, so we don't upset our kids. I hate it, and I don't even want to do the stuff. It makes me sad.
My T commented that I am doing very well in spite of what is going on in my marriage, so that is why we spaced out my appointments. But now I am not doing so well. And plus there haven't been any changes in my marriage either, no talking, no sex, no nothing. I can't get him to open up and he won't do counceling so it feels so frusterating . I love my DH but sometimes it isn't enough. I guess it is also harder because I can't escape away at all those band rehearsals which kept me away from him at home some nights. Now I am stuck every night with him, and it is so depressing.
My T really helps me, so I guess I need to go more often. It just sucks because I feel like I am regressing, and I hate that. I feel like I hate everything. Sorry.
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