Posted by muffled on November 25, 2005, at 9:49:05
In reply to Re: What should I do? » muffled, posted by Poet on November 25, 2005, at 9:13:17
> Hi Muffled,
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> My T wants me to embrace my inner four year old. Talk to her. Nurture her. Try to remember what it was like to be her without being jaded from what all came later.***I thot mine was 7, but I think she's more like 5. I dunno why I have her. We fight. But actually we are starting to not mind each other so much. Its hard cuz I am letting her come around more and its very weird feeling the petulant emotions of a 5 yr old. But yesterday she had mischieviousness and that was fun! I thot she was all bad, but maybe she's not. We've only recently found each other, she used to be just static in my head and chewing in my guts. I didn't know it was her.
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> I just sent her through cyber space to Allisonross. Otherwise she's been living in my T's office for way over a year. My T said she'd take care of her until I could. Looks like I still can't. Though you know that seems so stupid. She isn't real. She's a part of me that is stuck and who I blame for so many things that deep down there's no way she caused.***I know mines not real too, but I am trying to like her etc. cuz she's me, I think its important. I am letting it be, and if sure feels real. And its helping me tons because stuff now makes way more sense, I'm way less confused. Maybe she IS real, but just not flesh and blood. I dunno. Its a very strange thing. But really I don't mind it at all. Its not scarey to me.
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> I think I know what I'm talking about in therapy on Saturday...***Sure has helped me. Maybe she could hang with you some.(your kid, not your T!!!!). She must miss you. She's proly sad.(your kid, not your T!!!!) Its ok if you fight. Fighting actually brought me and my kid closer cuz it caused us to communicate. I wonder if we could somehow let our kids talk to each other via babblemail? I can get mine to write stuff sometimes. That could be hilarious!!!!Wonder what they would say? Mine would proly just say how awful she thinks I am. Oh well.
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> Poet
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Thanks Poet for your reply, sure helps. I feel kinda weird these days.
Muffled
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