Posted by Annierose on November 13, 2005, at 15:34:33
In reply to Annierose, posted by fallsfall on November 13, 2005, at 9:44:51
You made a grown woman cry!! And not just the tears down the cheek variety, the sobbing, throwing my head into the pillow type .... but I'm feeling better now. It's unseasonably warm in the midwest today. I went for a brisk walk with my i-pod, planted some tulip bulbs, cuddled with my daughter on the couch and watched a movie, sipped Starbucks and now ... going to the in-laws for dinner (I don't have to cook!!!) ... so my day got much better. But, I can keep busy all I want and the sadness, the lonliness, I know it's just below the surface waiting to be heard. I'll try to keep it there until Monday. I think she'll be surprised, or maybe not, and the intensity of emotion I'm bringing tomorrow.
I often wonder why now? What has brought all of this stuff to the surface now? It is our work? Was it something Pfinstegg said that helped me see my own angst? It is my daughter, now the age when I first realized I was depressed? It is hormonal? It is what it is. And I do feel blessed that I have you and my fellow babblers to hold my hand when I need help crossing the street, and my T. Afterall, I could be going through this by myself and I'm not. I really felt loved this morning when I read everyone's responses. That's why I cried so hard.
poster:Annierose
thread:578187
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