Posted by Annierose on November 12, 2005, at 19:58:15
In reply to Re: Knowing and not knowing..., posted by daisym on November 12, 2005, at 17:38:30
I do think in some ways it would be harder for me if I was working with a man. I love my T enough already, so why add in a sexual component, because I do think I would be flirtatious with a male T. I guess what I'm trying to say, it's hard enough handling my feelings of love for my T, let alone wishing I could seduce him.
Both of my parents are living as well. I do see them on occasion, but they have no genuine feelings for me. When friends and babblers talk about their parents and the qualities they miss in them, I am hard pressed to come up with one thing I would miss about either one of my parents.
Also, the transference, it just messes up my mind. It does feel it is about them. Daisy, you are much further along your journey than I am. I'm just beginning to share all these intense feelings with my T, the "I miss you", "I hate this", "I just you could comfort me", "You don't really care" ... I do HATE it!! I feel like such a fool, and I worry what she thinks (yes, I do share that with her). I still feel it.
Yes, Pfinstegg's therapist would be happy that I am having a very intense experience too. Does that mean we are working really hard? Does that mean we are really messed up? Are we over-thinking everything? YIKERS ... I just don't like the place I am in right now. Back to middle school, feel awkward and all alone (coincidentally, my daughter just started middle school and I do believe it's what put me back there).
My T is taking the week of Thanksgiving off and I'm already worrying about that. My husband is being extra supportive these past few weeks. He knows I've been out of sorts.
Daisy your T is so responsive to you, it's amazing. It was nice that he called and reassured you. My T would never call me unless I asked her to. I often wish she would reach out to me when she knows I am going through a particularly rough patch.
We will get through this. It just takes lots of time. And we are lucky we have wonderful therapists in our lives (even if I get mad at mine from time to time).
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