Posted by Shortelise on October 30, 2005, at 16:13:35
In reply to Tale Tales **May be big trigger for some, csa**, posted by antigua on October 30, 2005, at 9:17:45
How hurtful all of that is.
Antigua, I keep writing one sentence after another and deleting them. Let me just write, ok, but please understand that I am not imagining that what I write is some sort of truth for you, but just ideas that come to me when I read what you wrote. Deal?
If you are learning about these things in therapy, the feelings about your Dad, the things that happened between you, it makes perfect sense that you would offer yourself to someone who would reject you in the same way your Dad did. You can now look at it from two perspectives: then and now, that is, how you felt when these things were happening to you as a child, and how those things affected your life up to and including now.
Your way of approaching this, of bringing it home to yourself, sounds so right to me. You knew sh*theels was going to reject you, but you asked anyway. Could it be that you are ready to, and in a safe therapeutic relationship where you can, look back and do some healing?
Girls who are not sexually abused by their Dad's also have sexual tension with them. It's usual. What a mess to sort through it all. To me, and what do I know, your reaction to him when you were 11 sounds like a sane reaction to an insane situation.
((antigua))
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