Posted by muffled on October 24, 2005, at 16:20:41
I was blocked, for a week, BAM. Just like that. So unexpected, for the f-word,on the writing board. i didn't know it'd be such a big deal. You hear it every where. I hope i didn't hurt no-one with mt post. I'm a m terribly sorry if so. but not surprized. I just felt so strongly to expess how awful I am. I wanted the bad to ease up. BAM.
It was so sudden, so complete, so awful, so confirming of what I'd just written. Banished. I thot I'd found a place where i could talk to such nice people. Where I could finally relax and not double think everything I say. I relaxed, and let myself be more myself, and got banished.
I later found out I could e-mail Dr.Bob and did. I expressed my feelings, I asked him to take back my post if it was harmful. I don't wanto hurt people. My badness hurts people. He said "I don't know that anyones been hurt, except maybe you!" Why would he put an exclamation mark there???? Was he laughing at me???? He hurt me. He will not hurt me again. I can't be banished if I am not me. If I am always careful. But then this place is no good anymore is it?
So my bad post was so confirmed, its so true. Kinda cool if sad I suppose. I don't care.
So THANK-YOU all you guys. You write so amazing stuff. I hope with time and patience you will all have more and more healing.
Thank-you,Damos.
I'm so sorry.
(((((Babblers)))))
Muffled
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thread:571465
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