Posted by 10derHeart on September 10, 2005, at 16:43:22
In reply to Re: Hey, Rain » 10derHeart, posted by rainbowbrite on September 10, 2005, at 0:12:05
I didn't feel at all disappointed with your post. That would require some sort of expectation, I think, and I didn't have one. Just a hope you would feel like telling us...nothing more :-)Well, thinking back over 4 years, I've had the *first session* experience 7 times! Never counted before....wow! Now, only 2 of those Ts didn't stay my T. because it was a bad fit - one male, one female. With all the other changes, it was because it was a military clinic, where T. left to go to a new base, retire from the military, or in one case, deploy to Iraq. So....don't freak about that number 7!
Anyway...I think this sounds about right. Mine were all a bit differnt differnt, yet had a few things in common. Draining, weird, kinda good but kinda not...all that. I think spending 2 hours with you is impressive. No one did that with me.
I'm proud of you for going - sticking our heads in the sand and saying, "oh....never mind," feels a lot easier sometimes. It IS a lot easier, sometimes. But usually only for the short term.
I think gg is wise...give it around 6 sessions or so. You know, I HATED my former T. (pdoc) when we first met. Thought he was arrogant, too quiet and mysterious, annoying, infuriating. This is a man I now love dearly, who kept in email touch with me for 4 months after a painful termination until I found my current T. (actually, I still email him every couple months and he's very warm and responsive)
Moral of story = I judged him too harshly, too quickly, and I was filterng through my own junk, too. This is where these relationships are just like any other in life, IMO. Sometimes, our first impressions are wrong. Although, sometimes, they're right. My instincts never said ex-T. didn't care and wasn't going to help me, just that he was sort of...incomprehensible! (sp.?)
Anyway...I'm rambling. Hang in and share with us. With all these awesome Babblers, we may have just about seen and heard it all! You can do it, even though it IS hard.
You can do hard stuff - you're RaNEboughBRIghT! lol
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