Posted by Shortelise on July 27, 2005, at 13:21:38
...so I am on the cancellations list with my T, and of course I feel punsihed that he doesn't have time to see me, but I walked out the time before last, so why should he make an effort?
I'm under a lot of pressure right now, and I sure could use some help from him.
I have this weird feeling in my body when I think about some of the things I want to talk with him about. It feels like crying in my bones. That sounds strange, but it's the only way I can think of to describe it. And when I think of the things some of you say here, that your T's have sent you away when you still needed them, I am almost paralysed with sadness.
And I am so upset that walking out of a sessions has an economic impact on him. I never knew that. I think it would have kept me there had I known. Should I send a cheque, even though he hasn't billed me? (This is socialzed medicine here, I don't pay the psychiatrist, the medical system does.)
Come to think of it, I never walked out of a session in the first five minutes before. Only this once. It was usually later in the session. Except one time when he left the room to take a phone call in the middle of a session. Little did I know it was my neurologist phoning to discuss meds with him. :-(
Help.
Now I have to go shopping with my niece, and be a happy, sweet auntie. Watch this!
Love and thank you,
ShortE
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