Posted by JenStar on July 24, 2005, at 22:05:29
In reply to Woud my ex T remember me? it's been 6 months, posted by pinkeye on July 24, 2005, at 15:28:13
hi pinkeye,
in all honesty, he probably does not think of ANY past patients with much frequency. It sounds like he is very busy with work/life/commitments, and would probably be devoting his thoughts to the new pursuits. It's likely that he may think of past patients (including you!) from time to time, if he is reminded of a case, looks at old files, or has a similar patient or friend currently.
However, that does not mean you are not WORTHY of being remembered on a daily basis! You're a great person, and even if he doesn't think of you often, that does not diminish your worth or your positive traits. There are many other people who have you in their live right now, and enjoy you. :)
I also doubt very much that your T hated you. You seem to think that your T has extremely negative feelings for you! But you don't seem hate-able at all. I think you're projecting your negative self image onto him. And I think we've also concluded that he wasn't the best of T's to you. At least, I'm personally convinced of it! (Sorry.)
I do understand what it's like to burn, to cry, to desire being remembered. I really do. I've had my heart broken, and raged against it, and against the fact that HE was completely "moved on" while I was stuck, stuck, stuck. It killed me. I couldn't understand how it was so easy for him to forget me (me! How could me forget ME!??) I DO understand how horrible it feels.
But you will move on too, even if at a slower pace. You really will. The pain will fade.
And you ARE worthy and wonderful, regardless of whether he thinks of you often or not. :)JenStar
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