Posted by LittleGirlLost on July 13, 2005, at 10:12:31
In reply to Re: Need help figuring out feelings..... please? » LittleGirlLost, posted by Daisym on July 11, 2005, at 20:35:27
Daisy,
I think it is wonderful that you actually talk to your T about being attached. I do feel attached, and I'm sure my T knows it, but I'm afraid to talk about it and tell her just how much. I'm embarrassed! And even though I understand it intellectually, I still feel weird about it. I've always felt rejected by my own mother, so my thinking is always, "how can someone else possibly care about you when your own mother didn't!" And I am afraid what would happen if I tell her. I don't know how to explain it...
About the phone calls - Yes, it sounds like our T's both have the same philosophy where calling is concerned. I spend so much time and energy fighting it, etc, whereas she very simply tells me that I don't have to do that to myself and I should just call! It's hard though. And like you, it's even harder when I really don't have anything to say, but just need to hear her. Then I feel stupid calling... She doesn't say much (in person or on the phone), so when there's that akward silence on the phone when all I want is to hear her voice, I just feel weird!
Interesting that you said you can't cry when you are anxious or scared. Maybe that is part of my problem. I do trust her, but I'm still afraid to cry. I also know that I am anxious often when I am there. Honestly, I don't even like talking about it... yet I want to. :(
Thanks Daisy.
lgl
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