Posted by Jazzed on June 26, 2005, at 14:03:56
In reply to Re: Im really messed up, posted by rainbowbrite on June 26, 2005, at 11:51:07
> But then if I go in and im not fine....its like, but you look fine? But Im not fine! do I have to scream?
You shouldn't have to scream. He's a psychiatrist, he should be able to go with the flow where your moods are concerned. Can you tell him that you need him to listen and take you seriously, and not joke around?
>Ok so I will scream (or raise voice) so then I get a smile, and a silly remark...So I start trying harder.... no litsen to me grrr!!
Oooo, this isn't good. No silly remarks when you're feeling bad, that is NOT helpful! Can you tell him that his comments aren't helpful, that it is difficult enough for you to tell him that you're not feeling well emotionally?
> At that point Im lost too and everyting becomes a joke. It my fault I know. I started it.
No, I don't agree. He should be able to listen to you, hear what it is that isn't right, and work with you. Doesn't matter what you did that makes you think his reaction is okay because "you started it". What do you mean by that anyway, what did you start?
> Maybe this isnt a fair statement but I think it may be....If I went in to my pdoc and said Im feeling suicidal (BTW-I HAVENT EVER AND AND IT IS NOT AN ISSUE) He would comment back with...well if you are going to do it here please be clean about it.
Oooo, very bad. That's not at all funny if you think he might do that, even if you think it will never be an issue.
Awhile ago, my meds made me feel suicidal. I knew it was the meds because I'm not suicidal. Anyway, when we were talking about what was going on, in a very quiet, sensitive, caring voice he said, "were you suicidal?" OMGosh, for him to actually verbalize it made me feel that he would do what it took make things right. I was fine by then, but it made me realize I could tell him anything about the way I felt. Of course, being a p-doc, and not a therapist, we moved on quickly, but at least he picked up on, and acknowledged my feelings without me having to say the S word myself.
I hope you can tell him how this is making you feel. Maybe print out your posts so he can read them, and maybe he'll get a clue.