Posted by messadivoce on June 25, 2005, at 0:41:41
I feel like I'm still carrying my T around in my head with me--I talk to him sometimes. But then there are so many times when I'm glad he's not here at all, when I'm feeling at my worst (or when I just roll out of bed, lol). But if you could pick one ordinary activity you would like to do with your T, what would it be?
Mine would be dancing. I am petite, and all the men I've ever danced with have been waaaaay taller than me. I've always envied girls who can put their heads on their partner's shoulder. I've never been matched in height with a man like that. (Well except in middle school, when I was taller than all the boys, but whenever I danced in middle school I always tried not to touch the boy TOO much.)
Anyway, the unique thing about my former T is that he was my height. I am positive that I could have put my head on his shoulder. Sigh...I would have liked simply being close to him too.
I discovered this week, while I was away from my fiance (who is 11 inches taller than me BTW) that I almost craved touch. My cousin, who is my age, took me out on the quad for an afternoon. Even though we are pretty much like brother and sister, I found such a huge comfort in having to sit close to him on the quad, and hang on for dear life. I wouldn't have had that comfort with a man who is not related to me and therefore could be attracted to me. I think I would have that same comfort from dancing with my T, too. Somehow that whole scenerio is safe to me, and now that I think about it, it speaks volumes about our relationship.