Posted by littleone on June 16, 2005, at 21:15:10
In reply to I'm afraid but I'm also afraid to post about it, posted by Dinah on June 16, 2005, at 10:46:18
I had been wondering if there was more going on with you than you'd let on. You just haven't been yourself since the babble party. I'm glad you posted about it.
I can understand your fear about letting the rational side take over. And as bad as si'ing is, I'm still glad that your emotional side isn't going without a fight. That it still wants to be heard.
I know your rational/emotional states are different to mine, so I'm not sure how relevant this is. But I know that for me, dissociating and being overly rational are sometimes linked. Like I use being rational as a way to cut off and compartmentalise my emotional parts. I just close off my emotional side.
If you think that sort of thing is partly at play, perhaps you could look up some sites/books about grounding techniques. To be honest I can't really recall any off the top of my head, but I would try to go for less thinking and more feelings ones. I think one is to close you eyes and sit for a few minutes and be aware of everything you can hear or everything you can smell, etc.
The other thing is to try to find ways to reconnect to your emotional side. I found drawing very helpful for this. I especially found that when I started to do 2 or 3 drawings a day, I started to stay in that younger more emotional state for a lot longer. I know you've talked before about playing with your barbies, would that help? Playing with your puppies a lot may help too.
I hope this helps just a little. I've missed you lately.
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