Posted by mair on April 8, 2005, at 11:08:46
In reply to Re: talking about it » mair, posted by daisym on April 8, 2005, at 0:04:43
I hate it too when Babble gets so quiet over the weekend because sometimes that's the only uninterrupted time I have with the computer.
I can almost guarantee that the pdoc isn't going to tell him to cut back with you and you should be able to trust him enough to know he's not going to draw back from you under any circumstances but especially not when you're in such distress. I don't know enough to speak to the issue of whether you'll lose little daisy. I do know that if you kill yourself, you'll surely lose her. The unfortunate part of ADs is that they take a while to kick in and the initial side effects can be tough to tolerate. With many of the ADs, the side effects dissipate afte a couple of weeks, maybe, so if you can hold on, it may be worth it. I'm now going through a new trial of a drug which is being added to the stuff I've been taking for years. The "cocktail" I've been taking has never really been enough and obviously didn't prevent the rather severe trough I'm in now. However, just the memory of how much pain I was in before we settled on those drugs is enough to keep me on them, I expect for the rest of my life. Finding a drug that worked even partially for me has made such a huge difference. I think you need to accept that there is only so much you can handle without drug intervention.
Hopefully you'll hear from other posters who are dealing with csa issues about whether taking drugs makes them less able to tap into the childhood memories.
I'll check in periodically over the weekend or you can babblemail me if you want. Unfortunately I am on EST. It used to seem to me that everyone was on Pacific Time and that no one was ever around when I posted earlier in the evening.
Mair
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