Posted by Dinah on March 13, 2005, at 8:27:50
In reply to Re: Remember I said my therapist would never, posted by annierose on March 12, 2005, at 23:37:45
No, I'm not mad. I was amazed that he called, and while I certainly don't expect him to make a habit of it, I was touched. I guess I make light of it because I don't want it to mean too much to me, because he is *not* one to make a habit of it.
He thinks it's all too easy to fill therapy with elements that properly belong to romance, and he is very careful not to do that. He talked to me seriously about it once. It's a deepheld conviction of his that that's not fair to the client.
I'm not feeling too well. Work is going slowly. And the work I do do is exhausting me. I have to think it's an interplay between diabetes and stress and depression. I'm tearful all too often.
And I am still a bit angry, telephone call or no, that what I considered an offering to him of an idea... Well, I bared my soul, was psychically undefended in front of him by admitting that I feel held in therapy and admitting that that feeling was so important to me that no power on earth would make me give it up willingly. And I offered him a way that I thought would make therapy better for him, because he feels frustrated that I don't take challenge better, and I did it in a way that made me very vulnerable. And he didn't take it that way at all. He turned it into something ugly and he said rude things to me. I'm glad he called and checked on me, and I could see his calling as an apology of sorts. But it stings. I guess I'll know better after next session if I'll be able to put this all behind me and write it off as a bad day. I'm sure I'll find a way to do that.
It also never makes me feel too good to hear my therapist admit that something is beyond his skill set. :D
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