Posted by pinkeye on February 16, 2005, at 19:42:41
In reply to Oh God this hurts so much., posted by Susan47 on February 16, 2005, at 19:32:27
I am very sorry you are hurting so much. You are a very very nice person.. you are just going through a difficult time. We all do. Sometimes we behave very badly ourselves, sometimes we end up getting the worst luck in life.. Hang in there. It will get better. You have helped me so much in my struggle, and I am thankful to you for that. You have helped so many people here in babble, I have looked through your posts.
Sometimes it is difficult to get things together in life. It is just the way life is. It is not all the time fair to everyone. All of us have our own share of unfairness and sometimes we mess up big time ourselves in life. All of us have done things we are extremely ashamed of and embarassed about. We just have to do our best to pick ourselves up and go on. I see a beautiful person in you. Anybody who is willing to change and try and learn is a beautiful person. If not now, tomorrow or the day after or the day after that, you will emerge a happy and cheerful person. Hang in there.
> Why can't I get it together? What is the matter with me? Why am I all alone doing this, why did I see this doctor and behave this way, why didn't he show me any redemption, why does he hate me so much, why oh why am I so unbelievably hateful of myself, I hate myself so much I just want to die now. I can't believe yesterday was a good day. :( I am so so sad. I hurt so much. Nobody will ever ever love me or care about me, I'm ugly, I'm obnoxious and I've failed at everything I've ever tried to do. I hate me. I hate me. I hate me.