Posted by lonelygal2 on February 13, 2005, at 18:42:18
In reply to Re: met with a new therapist » 10derHeart, posted by shrinking violet on February 12, 2005, at 19:26:27
i think i just quit therapy, if you can call it quitting b/c i really hadn't started, only met with her once.
i had left a message today saying that i thought she would leave or get mad at me and that i know i was acting like such a kid, i dunno.
she called back and said that she's not mad at me, that she wasn't gonna call me back, but thought she would just to tell me that, and that i needed to be clear in my messages if i wanted her to call me back.
i just felt even before she called that i was being so annoying. and then when she called i felt worse, like i was such a pain.
after she called, i called back and left a message saying that i didn't know why i was being so needy with her, that i thought i was the most annoying person in the world, that if my own family doesn't care about me- something must be wrong with me, and that i should just get used to being alone, and that seeing a therapist for one hour a week wouldnt' really change anything, and that i shouldnt' go on tuesday, and that she didn't need to call me back.
i'm not sure if i made a good decision. on one hand, i'm not worrying that she is going to leave, but i dunno. whatever.