Posted by shrinking violet on January 30, 2005, at 11:50:01
I apologize if this is a rather trite post, especially given that others are going through some intense stuff in therapy and with their T's. I just didn't know who else to ask.
Last session my T did the sweetest thing....She gave me a cat toy for my new kitten (I got him for Christmas as a present, although he's already getting big!). She said that her two cats offered the toy up for the baby. I was so incredibly touched and that little toy probably meant more to me than anything I ever received. She also gave me a container of catnip so that I could refill the toy as needed. Anyway, after session I put the toy and the catnip into my coat pocket. I don't know why I didn't put the toy in my purse where it would have been safer. Perhaps I was still too upset to think clearly (I cried the whole session, for various reasons, and as usual she was very comforting). Anyway I trudged across campus in the snow and ice, drove home, and when I went to excitedly pull out the toy to give it to my cat, the toy wasn't there. :-( The catnip container was, but the toy wasn't. It must have fallen out. I drove back to campus, back to where I parked, I even walked back over the path I took and went back into the building and searched the stairwell, but with no luck. It was gone.
I'm so so so upset. That's the only thing my T ever gave me, aside from a wall calendar a couple of weeks ago. I really wanted my cat to have that, it would have meant a lot.
But, what's done is done I guess. So what do I do? Do I tell her the truth? I know when I see her next week she's going to ask how he likes his toy. Should I lie and make her think he loves it, or should I tell her the truth?
I'm sorry if this is a stupid dilemma, I'm at a loss as to what to do as I can see good/bad points to both. I'd hate to lie, but I don't want her to feel badly either, and I don't want her to know what an idiot I am. I'm so upset that I lost the toy. :-(