Posted by 10derheart on January 14, 2005, at 17:56:53
.....trigger in me? You have REALLY got me stunned and speechless this time. And please know this is no kind of false modesty or whatever some *together* person does when they receive such amazing compliments and validation. (not that you think like that anyway) Nope - this is just the real me, with tears in my eyes - feeling like I've just been touched by an angel named Crushed.You have no idea how much your kind words meant to me. I am at a confusing crossroads in my life, really striving to know my purpose and what I should be doing with myself. Any input like this matters right now - *so much* - in me getting a clearer view of all that stuff.
I'm caught between thinking you (and Susan47 and Voce, too) are just altogether too kind and generous and go too far...and wondering, almost believing,...what if I am capable of helping people just by sharing what comes naturally from the heart (and I do love to write)? What if?
You made me feel so appreciated and valuable and warm all over. You also instantly reminded me of an important thing my former T. wrote about two weeks ago, as he was looking back over my emails to him. He said," You seem to struggle between the idea of being awesome and confident and the fear of being needy, foolish and unwanted."
Hmmm. A lot to digest with my much-improved but still fragile sense of self-worth.
And Crushed, you have plenty to say to Voce and many others, and you don't need to say it as well as I do, or as well as anyone else. You have great empathy because of your own suffering, growth and current journey. We all bring something wonderful and unique to the *support table* don't we? And you just made me feel *much* better about posting more often without fear of sounding silly and making things worse. That's pretty wonderful in my book.
poster:10derheart
thread:442276
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20050111/msgs/442276.html