Posted by mair on January 7, 2005, at 16:27:04
In reply to He does have his strengths, posted by Dinah on January 7, 2005, at 13:50:34
Dinah - it sounds as if your T is monitoring this closely enough and that you are taking it seriously enough. I think it helps to have someone really understand the nature and depth of your despair and your incapacity.
People are more understanding when there has been a death in the family. I milked my own father's death as an excuse with a number of clients so even if you feel it's not a legitimate excuse, it is legit and more importantly, everyone else will feel its legit.
I too have had the thought that killing myself is preferable to telling a client I haven't finished his work or otherwise being exposed for the neglectful nonproductive fraud I think I am. I think you just don't want to have to confront whatever your most iminent work disaster might be. I've had to catch myself and reflect on the absurdity of killing myself on account of anything work related. I mean it surely isn't worth all that.
Personally, I kind of like the spa idea, although it's a pricey alternative. The only attraction a hospital ever held for me was that I might not have to accept any telephone calls or otherwise talk to anyone connected to my work life. When I was that depressed, however, I didn't have the creativity to figure out that maybe I could get that same protection in a spa.
Please take care and keep us all posted on how you're managing.
Mair
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