Posted by Speaker on January 4, 2005, at 20:41:53
I haven't been writing at all lately or even reading...but I appreciate this board very much. I have gone through csa, tragic accident of my daughter with long recovery, chronic sickness of husband that led to death. My daughter and husband both sick in my 30's. I'm now in my late 40's and have remarried and have a wonderful life that seems harder and harder to live. I have always been able to be emotionallly stable...never much showing emotion (learned behavior very young). Lately, I have had to give up my job as I can't concentrate. I have never really wanted to be a career person even though I was very successful...I justified quiting since I always wanted to stay home. However, I am having a terrible time...often wishing I wouldn't wake up in the morning. I feel like I could cry and never quit...of course I usually don't. In my last session I just started talking and I couldn't stop the tears rolling down my cheeks...I was so embarassed. I have been taking more meds but I seem to be worse than better and I can't figure what is the upsetting factor (which is even more upsetting)and neither can my T. I hope you followed all of that and if any of you have experienced this please let me know...I need a little hope there will be an end to this!
Thanks!
poster:Speaker
thread:437883
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