Posted by smokeymadison on November 23, 2004, at 16:33:22
In reply to Racing brain, does anyone feel like this???, posted by auralee on November 22, 2004, at 18:32:37
yeah, i really do relate to how you feel. I was diagnosed with BPD last week while i was in the hospital. i have been through anorexia and bulimia and also have pure obsessional OCD. i had seizures while on one of my meds a few years ago. the bipolar diagnosis is still up in the air. all i know is that i can't take SSRIs because i get very manic on them and that i require a mood stabilizer all the time.
you should read "I Hate You, Don't Leave Me" It is about BPD and really opened my eyes to what is going on with me. bipolar disorder can mimic BPD. Usually people with BPD have mood swings that last hours to days, instead of weeks or months as in bipolar disorder. i have nightmares all the time where i just snap and become totally psychotic. A lot of the time, my thoughts feel very thick and go through my head very fast. oh my god my diary is full of incoherent ramblings of thoughts that seem to have no origins. it sounds pretty cool in a sort of unnerving way, though. Sometimes i swear i have ADD but i know that i don't. I would read that book if i were you, it really hit a cord with me. i also am so very sensitive to what other people say.
i have found that an antipsychotic (the two newest are Abilify and Geodon) and a mood stabilizer work the best. I prefer Trileptal, an anticonvulsant, but you have to be careful with anticonvulsants b/c of your epilepsy.
i wish you the best, i really know how you feel.