Posted by Bent on November 1, 2004, at 14:30:29
Right at this moment I feel like I never want to go back to my T again. I know in five minutes I will feel different, and then in ten minutes I will feel this way again. I can’t call and say I quit, nor do I want to. But can I call and say I need a break? Can I ask for two weeks off? Will she hold a spot for me? I feel like she is so frustrated with me. I brought up termination for the first time last week and we both agreed things were going well (that is all the things I went to therapy for, my attachment to her has only gotten worse – but I didn’t tell her that) and that over the next couple months it would be good to talk about terminating. She left it up to me. She told me it took a lot of courage to bring this up on my part and that we’d keep talking about it. This week she wasn’t as sensitive about it. It just seemed like she was almost happy that I would be leaving. Like I am a big annoyance to her. I feel like she is so so frustrated with me I just want to get away for a while. If I think she's frustrated why do I want a break? Maybe I am being irrational. My mind says run, my heart says stay. I need to go breathe. Sorry if this is confusing, i am confused right now.
poster:Bent
thread:410145
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20041026/msgs/410145.html