Posted by shrinking violet on October 27, 2004, at 14:20:36
my t sent me a card. i got it today. i quit with her two weeks ago, but she thought i would reschedule at some point. i sent her an email last week making it more final.
i have so many regrets with her, namely i regret that our last session was our last session---it wasnt the way i would have wanted to end with her. she sort of left it open...for me to schedule if i think counseling can help me with anything....but i know i can't. i hate that this is so hard. it seems to get harder instead of easier, why is that?
in my last email to her, i basically took the blame for everything. i let her know that the reason i was leaving was for HER, not for me, because i thought it would be best for her. i told her i'd miss her and think of her, blah blah. i'm such an idiot.
i hate that i screw everything up. why is that? if i could have just talked to her, things would have been very different.
ironically i have an appt with my nutritionist tomorrow. i quit with her earlier this year after i figured i was wasting her time since i never did anything she told me to. last week i emailed her to reschedule...i think i'm partly making sure someone is there since my t no longer is. and i really like my n (and she knows my t very well, they work at the same uni and see each other). but, she isn't my t. kind of stupid i'm seeing her b/c right now i never want to eat again. i hope she's ready....i think i'm going to be a mess tomorrow. :(
why is this so hard???
poster:shrinking violet
thread:407966
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