Re: It's raining, inside and out (trigger potential)

Posted by antigua on October 21, 2004, at 8:46:07

In reply to Re: It's raining, inside and out (trigger potential) » antigua, posted by daisym on October 20, 2004, at 19:37:55

I hope you are better today; if not, try to focus on being stable just for today.
I truly understand how you feel and I know how hard all of this is.
Is your adolescent girl behind this? Is she striking out because of the overwhelming pain? Or is it the younger Daisy or the adult you who just can't tolerate the pain anymore? Lots of questions, I know, but I care.
It's interesting you would bring up your sister. I have an older sister who I have had relatively little contact w/over the years (she has always hated me and I never knew why). In dealing w/my own therapy, I've come to realize that she was probably abused as well, but I don't know if she knows yet. She took a different path than me--she was very promiscious and spent many years w/alcohol and drugs. I bring this up because I got a letter from her a couple of days ago, asking me to bring my daughter and come visit her. I didn't even know where she was living.
I feel that she must want to talk, but as much as I would love to see her, she is unstable and very unpredictable so right now I have to stay away from her. It would be too much for me, as sad as that is. But I have to protect myself right now--so do you--and I'm going to decline the invitation. When I'm stronger I can face her, so don't you feel bad about your feelings for your sister. You have to focus on you and your family!
Also, I would love to release my anger but I just can't. Beating pillows, etc. just doesn't do it for me. Right now I'm dealing w/this intense transference w/my T--it's the very young child feeling dependent on her mother (or wishing she could be dependent), but her mother was never there. I have to trust my T and let those feelings out. And then maybe the doors will open a little bit more.
All my best to you, and I hope therapy is good for you today.
I still have plenty of strength for you and I'm sending it to you.
antigua

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