Posted by vwoolf on October 19, 2004, at 10:46:28
In reply to Re: Other people's needs and me » vwoolf, posted by fallsfall on October 19, 2004, at 9:55:16
>>If you don't know her expectations then you will make assumptions about them, and your assumptions will tell a lot about you. <<
I know, that's precisely what happened. I made assumptions about what she wanted me to do, and made a total fool of myself. And now I feel as if I have been caught up in a huge wave that is spinning me around and around, so that I don't know where up is and where down, or anything else at all in fact. I am not sure I have the stomach for therapy, I'm feeling seasick.
And thanks for saying I have insight. I feel as if I have none, that I'm just blundering along. I nearly rang her to cancel my next appointment this morning, but then had second thoughts. I'll talk to her about it on Thursday, even though I will no doubt make myself look stupid yet again. I wish this weren't so painful. I now have to go and see my GP as well because of the SI I inflicted on myself over the weekend, and I don't know what he's going to say. He thinks I'm just a happy suburban housewife. And I know I shouldn't worry about what he thinks, but I do.
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